wonderwall.

i still get teary-eyed when i watch birthing shows on TLC. this time last year, i was preggers watching it... balling my eyes out, so worried about going into labor. i didn't want don to see me in pain like that. i wasn't sure what to expect. & quite frankly, i didn't want 50 people all up in my woman parts. but, giving birth was the best thing that has ever happened to me. it was hard, exhausting, and it made me very very emotional. i can't imagine what life would be like without gavin. what would i do all day? without gavin, i wouldn't know what to do. dad asked me this the other day "do you evert think of what you'd do if you didn't have gavin" and honestly, i dont know. i mean, what do people do all day who don't have children. i feel like a super hero with all that i get done on a daily basis.

i had no intentions of going off on that tangent...

anywho, Gavin & I are leaving for the beach in the morning. moms been down there the entire month of june, and i sorda miss her. dads not coming down until friday & misty will be coming down next thurs. but, i have to come home for a doc's appt... boohoo. Don's going to miss me. i bet so. he'll miss gavin, this i know. scooter may miss me... :) but, i need to get out of the house and have a semi-vacation. i want my toes in the sand & hopefully, the water won't be too chilly & i can get in. PLUS, i want some sunshine. i need rays. i need tan skin. i'm so white.

this will be my first long trip without anyone in the car with me. i hope gavin does well. i'm hoping to leave during his morning nap time, so he'll sleep most of the way. & we'll miss traffic & the sun wont be all up in his face. the 3 hour trip may wind up taking me 5 hours, but i really really hope not.

i've cleaned the house, cept the dishes. i'll get to them before i leave. i dont want to leave don in a messy house. i'm sad he wont be coming down at all, but he'll enjoy the house to himself, i'm sure. hes already said he's going to come home and take a nap when we're gone. psh, must be nice, right? i hope the house is clean when i get back, though. i hate coming home from vacation to a messy house & then having to UNpack. grr. oh well, the price you pay.

speaking of packing... i should probably be doing that right now since Gavin finally went down for his nap. he's been refusing to nap lately. i know since he's getting older he wont nap as often, and that's ok with me... but not when he's so fussy cus he's tired, yaknow. balhbaldkjfa

i need a suitcase. i don't like having to use three duffle bags and a book bag. maybe I'll look into getting some nice luggage. it's not like we go off enough to have a decent set, but it would be great to have when i decide to head down to the place at the beach. i can't believe moms been there for almost an entire month! if i didn't have a doc appt i would stay for two weeks... no i couldn't i would miss Donald.

don & i took Gavin to the city park on Saturday. om gosh, it was so much fun. he lovess lovesss lovesss the choochoo. he got all excited when i asked him if he wanted to go see the choochoo... he liked the carousel too. funtimes. it's not that expensive to spend the day there either. we still have tickets left. hopefully, we can go back alot this summer. don wouldn't ride the carousel with gavin... maybe i can get his tail on it before the end of summer. we'll see. gavin was so cute, gosh. he was holding on to the pole like a big boy. & he'd dance when we'd go by the music maker thingamajig.